Depression is gone

Most of me believes this, but this week has shown that its not totally true. With covid 19 we have been following government guidelines and staying home mostly. In South Korea jobs that can are working from home especially schools. So my husband (a professor) is teaching classes online. I feel like I did when the kids were all little and going out was hard. We have had bacon 4 times in 6 days. I spent more time on phone video games than I have on anything else in 2 days. I manage my depression usually by Taekwondo, outside activities etc.... all which are cancelled at the moment. Even getting a few hours of down time in our bedroom is out, because that is  currently his classroom and work space.  I am looking around me and realizing I recognize the coping skills I am using and need to figure out why.  What is stressing me out so much that I have cut and colored my hair, rearranged my furniture and zoned out for hours a day?  I am not sure of the answer yet but I am heartened by the fact that I recognize the signs and for me that is 90% the battle. I will be going back to the gym later today. I will make sure I eat real foods instead of processed. I went to bed and slept for 8 hrs last night. I removed the one game from my phone.( I kept the one that has max playing time of 30 min cause of lives :)  I know for me lack of interaction with people has always been an issue. Isolation can send me into a downward spiral quickly. But not this time. I do not believe the lie that I am alone. I refuse, because the truth is I am not.  I have a father God who loves me, I have a big brother sitting next to him, advocating for me and I have the Holy Spirit, the comforter, who breathes words of encouragement and instruction that can bring me through anything. Today is a new day.