Lie number 2

forever
at
this weight

That was today's lie this morning... Well part of it. It started with weighing myself... mistake number 1. I weigh over 200 lbs for the first time in 2 years. When we moved to South Korea, I weighed probably close to 220.  We walk every where here,  so in the first 3 to 6 months I lost over 25 lbs.  And kept them off. I was frustrated recently because I weighed 89 kg in January 2018 and same in January 2020. But this 3 weeks of inactivity due to corona virus has not helped. This morning as I looked down at that weight, my first thought is I will never lose the weight. I will always be fat. I will never be happy again. Yeah I know. all three of those are lies. I will never lose the weight... not true. I started again this morning at the gym (I miss taekwondo so much). I will always be fat is not true either.  The last one is the one that got my attention. I will never be happy again. Wait. where did that come from? No I am not happy about my weight, but  my happiness and my joy is not wrapped up in my weight.  My happiness and Joy come from one place and one place only... and that is from God. No it doesn't mean I never feel sad and never get depressed. But I know who I need to turn to with those feelings. He can help and does, even when I forget where to turn. Sometimes its a email or message from a friend. Sometimes its a song on the radio. Sometimes its a children's song from a long time ago.  I need to learn to recognize the lies every time, and declare the truth.