Inflicting
Lies
Enveloping
Never-ending
Cursing
Existence
This is the third rendition of this and finally ok with it. Silence was a way of life that was necessary for survival so it became too ingrained in my personality. I can still remember sitting at counseling and being told she wasn't sure if we should continue for lack of any progress. This on my birthday...after crying my eyes out in the car for 30 mins after the session the week before. She had a list of what she should see and how counseling should go for an abuse survivor. But what she didn't seem to take into account was that the culture of silence and the fear of speaking or showing emotion had been trained into me from an early age. I had aspired to be Vulcan....and i was good at it. My life and well being had depended on it and i didn't yet feel safe enough with her to change that. For you counselors out there....just because someone comes in your door knowing we need counseling...doesn't mean we can automatically overcome that survival instinct of silence. You have to first find and crush the lies that became a part of the never ending records that play in our heads and overcome the survival instincts that helped us survive. Honestly...counseling didn't do that for me. At 36....I confronted the first lie and have been working on them as i discover them.
Lie number 1: you are always your parents child so they always have some control of your life until they die
Improperly used scripture: children obey your parents.
See if i am always their child....i have to always obey them.
That was the first lie that had to be seen and squashed.
For the next posts...I am going to write about the lies that bind at least for my life and journey
Take away: children obey your parents in the Lord. Honor your father and mother.
The two parts of this verse are for different parts of life. Obey being for children (which includes an element of honor) honor being for adults. I do not have to obey my parents as an adult to still honor them.
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