reboot after 6 years

So in 2009, I went back to college. Over the next five years, I completed my AA and a BA in English.  Needless to say, that took most of my time. Now that I have graduated, I have time and want to get back to blogging. This blog is going to be my place to think things through.  Things that are happening that I just want to mull over (not a journal). These things may not be what I believe but will be my way of working through what I believe by playing both sides. Maybe this is silly, but I am someone who works through decisions by talking.

why am I a slob.

I know why I was in the habit of being a slob as a kid. It was for control (one thing my dad couldn't control.) and if you can't find anything you can't snoop through it. But why am I still a slob. Is it just habit. Did I teach my kids the same habit (well some of them LOL)
How do I over come that habit?

Kris

writing down my life

spent a while this morning writing out some things about my life growing up but morphed into also how God broke the hold that the lies had on me. Its amazing how you can live your life in a fog and suddenly by acknowledging the truth... it clears. Things you thought you were seeing clearly become recognizable for what they really are.

kris

finding keys

My house is huge (we live in an old school building) and of course.. my keys have disappeared. Sigh. I will be doing 15 min in each room a day for the foreseeable future lol.

ok background

I was raised in an abusive home... verbal, spiritual and sexual.
I stuffed my feelings and ignored a lot and managed to survive.
I love my family and being a housewife... but have the confidence outside my home of a pea. I can talk to people one on one but please don't ask me to speak in front of a group. I love to talk about homeschooling and educational topics. I make soft sole shoes for fun.
But when it comes to promoting myself and start to sell stuff on the internet.. it scares me to death.

Finding me

finding me is about the journey from overwhelmed, mealy mouse me... to confident productive me. This is also to make me focus each day on where I want to be and how I can get there.

Kris